For the few months prior to now, I've not only neglected my blog but also my life, my friends, my family, my body and my emotions.
As I prepared for my hat-rick of internships in March, set to run back-to-back, I was more than aware I'd signed up for 7 weeks (in total) of unpaid work whereby I had to exert myself more than in my actual job, long hours and a hell of a lot of commuting; my final two 3-week-long internships were based in Manchester.
However, as a journalism graduate it was second nature to me. Over time I've realised, as students, we're not anything more than glorified volunteers - that's not me saying I'd be just as well owing my local Cancer Research shop a few hours per week. In fact, I wish to remove all negativity my previous statement may have brought.
Thankfully, I'm not that student I once was. But, I am still stuck in student ways.
On many levels, it's irrelevant to anything and it's a great thing but, to an extent, I must book up my ideas and make things happen.
And once again it all boils down to taking risks and jumping in the deep end...head first.
As a student, living in Newcastle, my life was very (excuse me) YOLO. If I wanted to do something then I did it and dealt with the consequences later. Having said that, I've always been quite level headed and when I make such statement which suggests I did 'whatever' I wanted, I've always been sure to weigh up the pros and cons, along with the negative consequences which could come as a result, within minutes before leaping in. And a lot of the time I would only dangle two feet off the edge rather than take the jump.
As I grow up I'm finding myself torn between the 'risky' me and the 'play it safe' me. I guess there's a reason my parents call me Mary; I've never been one to fast make a big decision without a little guidance.
Some mornings I wake up with the attitude that life's all about taking risks, and others I wake up feeling thankful I have a safe side to my muddled up mind.
I'm not neglecting anymore; It's not what it's all about, living.
Today I'm feeling risky and I hope the feeling lasts because, while I could be close to the peak of the roller coaster, nothing's to say I'm not just preparing for the quick, stomach-turning descent.
That's why I've never been on the Pepsi Max.
